Monday, February 28, 2011

WILD AND EXOTIC PLACES I WOULD LOVE TO MAKE LOVE AT

*ELEVATOR (BECAUSE OF THAT DROP IT DOES ) :^)

*THE BEACH AT NIGHT UNDER THE STARS

*THE HOOD OF A CAR WHILE ITS RAINING DURING THE SUMMER MINUS THE LIGHTING AND THUNDERING

*THE ROOFTOP OF AN TALL BUILDING

*THE BACK OF AN AMBULANCE

*CEMETERY

*AN OLD ABANDON BUILDING THAT'S HAUNTED (GHOST DON'T SCARE ME)

*IN A DOCTORS OFFICE

*IN A OFFICE

*IN A KITCHEN ON THE COUNTER

*IN A SWIMMING POOL

*HOT TUB

*THE SHOWER

*OVER THE TOILET

NOW TELL ME ALL OF OR SOME OF YOUR FANTASY PLACES TO MAKE LOVE

Friday, February 18, 2011

MENSTRUAL CYCLE (THE CURSE)

Headache, backache, stomach bloated and getting hard weakness take over me
I'm thinking to myself this cant be,nausea and fatigue comes next out of nowhere 
I cant believe my body and the signals its given me 
After being M.I.A for three in a half months and now you wanna show up irritating the hell out of me
Taking all of my energy making me weak and nausea at the sight and smell of you
I was so happy and free without you enjoying the hell out of life never having to worry about midol.
When you are around you make me act crazy and do crazy things. 
I end up saying stuff really mean stuffing myself with chocolates and salt and lazily laying around making me sleep and drink alot.
I go into a real bad funk i miss out on life having to deal with you .
Many times i have thought about removing you from my life from having to deal with you. 
Because you cause me way to much pain and suffering alot of money went on those big ass uncomfortable diaper looking pads to stop you from messing up a good pair of panties or pants. 
Growing up i was lied to telling me that i needed to suffer through and have you in order to have children but we all know that that is a bold face ass lie if only i knew then what i know now....smh 
blood flow muscles tightly contracting balled up into a fetal position
cursing the pain and mother nature out religiously as i am going through this horrific pain 
LIFE WOULD BE SO EASY WITHOUT YOU!


     ALEXANDRIA LINDSAY     

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

REMEMBERING

  IT Is four thrity in the morning I am up drenched in sweat from a reacurring nightmare my heart is racing so fast and beating so loud it is deafning to my ears then I start to recount my nightmare in my head it is a nightmare I remember having as a child alot until i just one day stopped having them but now they are back again The dream was of a little black girl in a bedroom sitting on a bed butt naked her head is held down her hands are in a praying  position I try to step closer to make out her face but something stops me its like an wall an invisible wall so I am forced to watch from where I am

Very soft and low sobs escapes her pouty lips her body is jerking and trembling very hard my eyes begin to water up its like i can feel her pain like it was my very own like it was my pain like i am somehow connected to this little girl but i cant figure out how it is all so fimilar to me it's like i have been in this very room before as soon as that thoought entered my mind a man enetered the room but i can't make out his face his and her faces are always blurred out for some reason  as my frustrations rise the man begins to slowly walk into the room he gave me an icy cold feeling down my spine he stands there breathing heavily above her then I turn my vision back to the little girl her head is still held low he says to the little girl "ARE YOU READY TO PLAY OUR DAILY SECERT GAME?" he said in a scrambled voice the little girl responds and says in voice barely above a whisper "NO I DONT WANNA PLAY I WANNA GO HOME" then the man replys "UNTIL WE PLAY OUR SECERT GAME YOU CANT GO HOME" The man tells her to lay back on the bed slowly while he undresses himself 

The little girl starts to protest and fight back but he is much to strong anger begins to build up and explode inside of me so i frantically begin to pound and beat on the invisble wall yelling and screaming  "GET OFF HER YOU BASTARD LEAVE HER ALONE!" but my screams go unheard of as i am standing here in total shock and dis-beleif as i am watching this young girl being violated taken advantage of robbed of her innocence and childhood of her happiness i continue to beat on the invisble wall that is seperating me from this young girl sweet young girl her cries and screams grow louder and louder her cries are longer she screams for her mother she screams for her father but no one comes to her rescue as this abuse and torture continues until suddenly it all goes quiet

By this time i have finally gotten through this invisble wall that was holding me back the whole time but the man is gone now but the little girl remains on the bed still crying with a broken body and bruised soul as i move closer to the little girl whos idenity is still a mystery to me I move froward to comfort her i am standing in me front of her now I reach out a shaky arm and hand out to touch her shoulder then all of a sudden she jumps a little and looks right up at me at the same time the blur disappears from her face I grab my cheast and jump back in dis-belif unable to breath or function correctly because the little girl staring back is............................................is......................is..........is ...........is ME! dayum (REMEMBERING)


                    THANK YOU 


                   ALEXANDRIA LINDSAY
COPYRIGHT 2011

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

FOR THE PRECIOUS VICTIMS YOUNG AND OLD

I wanna speak on the behalf of all of young girls and grown women who have been taking advantage of as little girls or who is being taken advantage of right now or has been by "CHILD MOLESTERS" "PEDOPHILES" over grown men who loves to have sex with really young girls and to say to everybody who says that you need to get over it and move on but what people need to realize that you cannot and will not forget and move on because shit like this scares a person for life especially when the sick bastards who has done this to you never goes to jail or they go to jail but get out quicker than they went in i am here to let you know that everyone of you young ladies and young girls or beautiful inside and out you'll may never ever forgive and forget what was done to you and you walk around feeling dirty and empty inside because what was done to you all was RAPE you never get over being "RAPED"   because personally i think they should be put these assholes in jail for the rest of their natural born life and have an four hundred pound cellmate who sticks a broomstick up is ass each and everyday let's uplift each other and encourage on e another don't let what these bastards did to you stop you from living life there should be a law where you can get older and have your case reopened and the bastard put behind bars just like they do cold cases and such but only if it were reported back when you were a child and nothing was done or they only went to prison for a very short time victims of CHILD MOLSETERS deserve and need justice to we need that for our processing of healing  and because of  our messed up screwed up laws and justice system my babies my children will never ever be going to sleepovers or anyone house for visits without me and i will be doing background checks

let's start protecting our babies if the damn laws wont do it!  

THANK YOU!

        ALEXANDRIA LINDSAY